.jpg)
I often find myself,
seeking refuge in seclusion,
yearning,
for the embrace,
of silence and solitude.
I instinctively,
avert my gaze,
from the reflections in mirrors,
as if the depths,
of my own eyes hold secrets,
secrets,
I'm not yet ready to confront,
hiding,
hiding from,
all the penetrating stares,
stares,
of those,
who seem to feed,
feed,
off my essence.
It feels as though,
I'm ensnared,
in an unending game,
of hide and seek,
with the energy vampires,
that roam free,
in this world.
Their presence,
a constant weight,
on my spirit.
No matter,
where I attempt,
to conceal myself,
their influence,
seems to reach me,
pervading,
not only this realm,
but also,
the enigmatic dimensions,
where souls traverse,
the cycles of renewal and rebirth,
leaving me feeling,
overwhelmed and drained.
Oh,
what a peculiar and bittersweet game,
I find myself playing,
spending,
my time,
helping those who are blind.
I find myself,
completely engulfed,
engulfed in the fears,
of those,
invisible energy vampires,
only I can see,
feeling paralyzed,
as they,
come into contact with me.
Allowing them,
to come so close,
I can taste,
the saltiness of their tears.
I feel as though,
I am caught,
caught,
within their sticky web,
web of deception,
caught in an endless cycle,
spinning,
spinning,
spinning,
round and round,
only to fall to my knees,
crying out,
from the deepest part of my soul,
"Let me,
just let me,
let me OFF,
OFF,
this fu*cking ride!
How long,
will I,
continue,
to sacrifice myself,
for those,
who refuse to see?
Falling,
falling as I strive,
to rescue you,
only to,
loose me.
Will you,
be there,
to catch me?
Will you,
save me too?
Can you,
feel,
how heartbroken,
I am,
taking on all your heartaches?"
Please,
don't take this personally.
These are only thoughts,
thoughts that consume me,
when,
I'm locked inside,
my own head.
You see,
the secret is,
it isn't you,
the only one,
that can save me,
is me...
Comments